To say that I feel overwhelmed by the love I feel from friends and family, when I get a chance to sit and think about it is a huge understatement. And I’m especially reminded about it on my birthday. From the many Facebook wishes (thanks FB for making it easy) to the thoughtful gifts to the smile on my kids faces as they wish me Happy Birthday. So, thank you all for thinking of me on my birthday – I hope a smile crossed your face as you did so.
At the same time, I can get pretty lonely. Owning a business where you are the only employee is quite a shift from being part of team or company that has thousands of people. That can get pretty weird on a day like a birthday – a push and a pull that left me working hard to stay present.
Birthdays, like other “anniversaries” seem to be a time where I do a lot of reflecting – a natural time to stop and take stock and evaluate what’s working; what’s not and what’s stuck. This year, I feel like there’s a lot of each.
Needless to say that I’m trying to sort it all out as I have time and opportunity. I’m pretty busy working the opportunities God has placed in front of me – day and night – so time is at a premium these days. I’m thankful for a wise wife that helps me get out of the ditches I find myself in from time to time. Her love and support make me go.
To close, I hope you have as special of a birthday as I had this year. Thank you for your love – it means the world to me.
The other day my nephews were rough-housing on the trampoline and went crashing into the safety net that surrounds it. Unfortunately for one of them, several of the straps that hold the net to the poles broke and he went head-first onto the ground. Luckily, he wasn’t hurt, but it did leave the net in shambles.
Every year on Father’s Day, there’s a mixed bag of emotions running through me. On the one hand, I am the dad to three amazing kids – a role I have longed for since I was their age. One I also take very seriously, which speaks to the other hand.
My dad died when I was six, but even if that hadn’t happened, my parents were separated heading for divorce. So, the hole his death left was inevitable – albeit absolute. My step-dad came into my life a bit later, but he went to work one day just before my eighth grade year and didn’t come home. And from there, I have been without a man in m life that is required to love me.
I am creating a father’s legacy…literally from scratch.
God has blessed me with incredible men that have taught me very important lessons on how to be a man and provided countless Godly examples of how to be a father, but as I reflect today…there’s still something missing.
If I had a third hand, it would be pointing to my Heavenly Father. He has not filled in the gap, but rather added another dimension or character to the person of father in my life.
We learn when we grieve and grow when we must work around those holes in our lives. The people around us need us to succeed, which is why I write about this stuff. It helps to put into words what is in my head and heart at times.
Father’s Day is a wonderful time to celebrate dads everywhere…just know that there are people out there that hide on this day because the pain is too great.
Remember to pray for His peace to invade their hearts.
Remember to be sensitive to those you know are hurting.
Remember to hug them; look them in the eye; and tell them how much they mean to you.
Love. That’s it…just love.
Today was one of the best Father’s Day ever for me as a dad, but still hard as a son -> loved as a dad; lonely as a son.